What is the Next?... What again?... What is the Next again?...
Have you ever thought of the life of next steps, what is it?... I have been depressed for few day thinking of what should i do the next? What should i choose? ... What if i choose this, what will happen the next?... Is it this is the best to choose?... Is it this can guarantee my life next few year sure can be better?... The time keep running, and i am still thinking and considering, what should i do the Next?...
Life is being choosing... Choosing the life... I start to realize that there is really no fair in this world, The beginning of everyone is too different >.<... Some people born in good environment, and someone might not. Some have good parent to guide them up, to reduce the mistake that repeating, however some might not. It really can't blame why some of them pass their life just like that, working, earn money, "cukup makan saje", time pass, then they grow old, and then die, that is the very common for poor people life, and it also for middle class people life. Why the rich is getting rich but they never try to share their wealth to the people? Why they doing the charity just for reputation instead of really helping people?. Why company said can provide good job opportunity but in reality they just squeeze the people until last blood bleeding... OT, heavy workload, never care about people holiday, only the boss is resting but the employee work like hell. That is too much of unanswer question ever poop up on my mind until i start to think how should i make my life to be better instead of just pass my time with all the common people. Outstanding come out my mind, Enactus ever said, Breakthrough, New ideas, and many more, but how to deal all this dream with the very reality of world?... Sorry, i think i am still in stuck of my mind, i still think like an employee, and keep complaining about unfair of my life but not taking any action to change it. I just wish to express my deeper feeling of hatred no where but in my blogs.
In my internship period, i use the poorer life just hope to save a lot more money, i take breakfast at home, lunch with mom beverage, night no matter how i will get it at home. During weekend, i rather stay at home or working part time instead of going shopping mall. Sometime, I even feel lazy to go out, meeting with friends, because i know every meet will be a spending of money, but why still i can't save for more money?... Is it the method i using is wrong? i sometime envy my friends can hang out during weekend, going for holiday with friends too. I try to search for more alternative to earn money, i know that part time, permanent job will not guarantee me to earn more money, that is just time exchange for money, i realize investment no matter trust, stock, gold, and even property it really take time and capital to build it, and the risk is higher and somehow will very depending on market demand and supply, fears, rumours, news, politic, and so on.
Many many things cross into my mind, i keep searching and trying new method no matter how. That is the another one solution i haven't try... doing business. I know the risk is even higher, i also know that it take a lot of efforts, i might have no time for friends, and chasing girl and so on, should i put a try. I guess that is the worst and ever interupt me in this few days. Many things i concern for this few days, is it great time to try up, how about GST coming, how about the market right now, what if i fail to do it, who should i find for partner, is it market available, and lastly, can i able to manage it?
What is the Next in your life? What? What? What?... what is the what? and it come back a very simple question, What is Life actually?... Life has became very complicated, it no longer as simple as what we thought... That is the Life~ #Expressing feeling ;)~
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